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Wednesday, December 27, 2006

omg
just tell me whts wrong
have i done anything to offend them?
or is it bcos she thought she lost tk due to me?

hais.
words do hurt, they really do.
she've said enough to hurt me.
why, why is there another time?
can someone tell me?

i dont know what have i done wrong.
i put my msn pm as 'lets play pretend.'
and then yinzhi came to talk to me, she asked me if which days were i free to go out.
so i told her im not free this year.
and then she zzz, nevermind.
i can accept.

and then a few minutes later, huilin came and talk to me.she asked me the same thing.
so i said next year? but got sch
then she was like glad you knw got sch
then i was like uhhuh.
then she was like so how?

aiya then i spotted her pm.
she change to 'camera tricks. just like wad yinzhi say'
then yinzhi pm is 'stop it! fcuker.'
then aft a while i changed my pm to 'all day'
she said ' your tricks dont work on me' at her pm

hais i dont want to write back, i dont want to pick a fight
but the anger inside me is building each time she hurt me
im really afriad one day i cant stand the pressure and start to fight with her.
ARGH.

please god, let me be more open hearted.
be more accepting.
dont let me fall into that trap.
amen.